My Journey in a Nutshell

When I left the engineering field, I had been working as an engineer for almost 7 years; I had no idea that I did not know anything about running a business. Tony Robbins says success is 80% psychology and 20% skill, and I obviously focused on the 20% right out of the gate. Due to me not having had the business knowledge at high school /tertiary level, I jumped into the business world and failed very fast.

I failed at everything. I was in a very dark place and I didn’t know how I was going to come out of it. It didn’t even look possible. It felt like that was how dead people must feel somehow, even though I knew very well dead people have no senses. I remember I would wake up only when I could find tiny piece of courage to get out of bed, and I would go and sit on the couch and do more nothing. I would only eat when I felt severely hungry and bath when I was starting to stink. I was sinking further down into the abyss each day. I did not know why I was in there; I did not know how I got there; I did not know how I was going to get out. I mean if I didn’t even know how I got there, how was I to get out? So, I just sat there in the middle of my pity party, crying every day.

I had such big dreams, and for me to be out here, broke, with no business nor potential of one, with no partner to love me, made no sense. I was angry, hurt and all other unpleasant emotions. I had a few family members and my best friend Zee that held my hand, but all the other people that I used to love and spend my time and money on had turned against me.

I was hearing rumours that they were saying I was foolish to have left a good paying job. I didn’t blame them because I was also judging myself. I had all the regrets, and I could not turn things around. I was stuck where I was and that was it.

It was the end of my beautifully planned life. I felt I might as well be dead. Even though it felt like I was dead for some time, I was not, painful as the entire process was; I was still alive and healthy. How was that though? What was it that kept me going in that very dark abyss?

The answer to that is in the very reason why I do what I do, many people go through similar struggles and they don’t have the necessary tools to come out of those situations. That is where the importance of having these tools come in, because I feel like without those tools, I probably would have been a statistic of suicide or probably would have landed myself on some mediocre level of life.